back to work

So... if you read this post you might have caught the part about how I felt like I had time to share this year...  either in a work sense or helping others sense.

It turns out that's going to be in a work sense.  I am going back to work!  Actually, I already started.  This week.  Just part time, 2 days a week with a little more from home and some Saturday's during busy season (like the time of year right now).

Busy season?  Does that mean you are doing taxes again?  Yes, I am!  I am going back to work at KSM where I worked before doing exactly what I did before.  My new desk is two desks away from my old desk and I'm working with all the same nice people.  Although when I left I thought I wouldn't do tax work anymore, some time off has helped me see that maybe it's a better fit than I thought it was.

It wasn't something I sought out, they approached me about working part-time again... and when asked, it turned out that I was excited about the thought of it and wanted to.  Last fall I thought about trying to work part-time during busy season this year, but things weren't falling into place and I wasn't going to try extra hard to make it work, so I decided not to.  Ever since I made that decision, going back to work was still in the back of my mind.  I'm thankful that by waiting and not forcing it, an opportunity came in God's timing.

Some questions you might be asking yourself (or maybe just ones I've been answering for myself!)...

Don't you like being a stay-at-home mom?  Didn't you quit work for a reason?  Yes, I do love being a stay-at-home mom and spending time with the boys.  It was a little hard for me to make the decision to work again because it's hard to not feel selfish, but I've decided that I want to work for a reason and I will still have lots of days at home with the boys.

Isn't it going to make you busy and maybe more stressed?  Yes, for sure it is going to make me more busy, but that's kind of the point.  I want to be a little more busy.  I am more productive when my schedule is a little fuller than it is currently.  I like really busy days so that I enjoy the low-key days more.  I'm hoping that it won't add too much stress.  I'm going to try to be smarter about planning simple meals on the days I work, as the get-home-from-work-cook-a-meal time of day is the worst part about it all for me.

Don't you like the time to do what you want to do when you're not working?  Before I quit working last year I had a picture in my head of who I would be when I stopped working.  In some ways it's true... I have done some projects I wanted to, have more time to clean and keep up with the house and time to play in the kitchen, time to sit around and enjoy the boys.  But there is this other side of me I thought would change more... but it hasn't really.  The side that pictured doing something new and amazing with my time or being creative super-mom or something.  Not that those things can't happen, but they didn't really for me.  I guess what I'm trying to say is that I think I made being at home something that it wasn't completely, so I'm ok with going back to work.

And since I already started, I can report that I had a good first day, it was great to see and chat with everyone, and my brain is a little rusty.  :)